I have often heard it said that the definition of insanity is, doing something over and over again, while expecting there to be a different outcome. If that is the case then I am insane.
I realize now that it is completely insane and crazy, to look at the characters' biographies on an almost daily basis. They don't change. Then why do I do it?
That is a fair question. It has a lot to do with the fact that it does not change. Knowing that they stay the same gives me something that I can rely on, something that I am able to be a part of.
Now you're probably thinking how does it give me something to rely on? That is another good question. It does so because it assures me that at least one thing in my life is going to stay the same.
Let me explain. I am not one who likes or does well with change. I know that change is inevitable, but I don't like it. I did not like when Kate and Jenny were killed off the show. I also did not like when Director Vance came in, and took Jennies place as Director of NCIS.
I realize now that it is completely insane and crazy, to look at the characters' biographies on an almost daily basis. They don't change. Then why do I do it?
That is a fair question. It has a lot to do with the fact that it does not change. Knowing that they stay the same gives me something that I can rely on, something that I am able to be a part of.
Now you're probably thinking how does it give me something to rely on? That is another good question. It does so because it assures me that at least one thing in my life is going to stay the same.
Let me explain. I am not one who likes or does well with change. I know that change is inevitable, but I don't like it. I did not like when Kate and Jenny were killed off the show. I also did not like when Director Vance came in, and took Jennies place as Director of NCIS.
I need to have some sort of consistency in my life, a routine, a comfort food of sorts. That is why, I can count on being able to watch a new episode of NCIS every week. That also applies to my being able to watch the older episodes over again, along with being able to read the various character biographies.
In terms of having something I can feel that I am a part of, I feel that I can relate to the different characters in the show. Each of the characters becomes like a family member, because you get to know them so well.
Aside from getting to know all the different characters better, I feel that I can relate to some of the particular characters. I don't know if this is the case with all fans. I know that as I watch the show I can identify with what the different characters are going through.
This might not come as a surprise to anyone who knows me and my NCIS obsession. But I can relate most of all to Abby Sciuto. Like me, she wants to always make people happy. Reading the biographies is almost like looking at a specific episode of NCIS over and over again. But there are differences.
It is similar to reading the biographies because it is the same episode that I have watched several times. I know every line in the show and every joke. It is also different because each time that I am watch an episode over again, there are things that I catch, that I missed the first time that I saw it.
Well is it a passion for the show that I have? An obsession for the show? or is it an identity of mine?
I think it's all three. And I love it.
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I really enjoy how you approached the question asked in class about your obsession with the show, and your answer is not only intriguing but it is also an attribute that can connect you and your blog readers together.
ReplyDeletePeople look for comfort in stable structures. Some people enjoy nostalgic food- you enjoy the monotony of the character bios page of NCIS. It's unique but similar at the same time!
I'm interested in seeing the reaction when the show goes through a cataclysmic change, whenever it jumps the shark or what not.
Those will be the blog posts that push you out of the comfort zone. It will make for some good reading!
Anything peculiar about the character's bios?
ReplyDeleteHow bout a summary of each with a pic? Where did they go to school, how did they get their big break on the shows? Do any of them have any children? What about the ones who left the show? Where are they now?
I love the title and the first paragraph especially. I really like this post because you put a lot of yourself in it giving it a very authentic feel. A touch of self revelation as you examine what your passion for the show means to you. I would be interested in seeing your reactions to changes that may occur within the new season and how you write about them.
ReplyDeleteGreat intro, giving the definition of insanity and revealing your insanity got me hooked and using the example of the character bios made it very well organized and symmetric. I think i'll watch NCIS next time its on =).
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